“The two both of me”
That was one grammatical error my friend will remember till eternity! Oh, it was not a knockout; it was an atomic bomb! And teens can be very mischievous & unforgiving when you ‘A bomb’ in class. He never saw the calamity coming when the teacher asked a simple question & he replied, “it was the two… both of us”.
Till tomorrow, the scenario will still be replaying in his dreams. Every classmate who could, went under their lockers. It was as if the reaction was preplanned. “The two both of us” became his instant nickname. And as a lifelong friend, even after all these years, I still celebrate “the two both of us” whenever I get to see him.
He said later, that he hesitated between two & both, because he felt like, “both of us” will sound better than “the two of us”. But no one cares. Naaah! We heard the words come out together & one cannot be twin. What he was thinking isn’t our concern, we only care about what came out of his mouth! He said, “the two both of us,” period! And forever, the atrocity is gazetted!
And that brings me to the “two both of me”!
Yes oh…. It’s crazy out there! Something is not right! I understand it’s not impersonation, but sometimes, I suspect there’s an evil clone out there, somewhere! Who is/are this/these? The resemblance is surreal! The only difference is in the flow out of each!
One says go & the other says stay. One speaks faith & the other spurts fear. One is so sure of himself; the other has this funny fears. One loves God passionately; the other still has eyes for the world. One wants to be without transgression; the other has some besetting sins. One loves to give sacrificially, but the other wants to withhold more, ‘incase’!
Hmmm! Is this spiritual dissociative identity disorder (DID)?
“I decide to do good, but I don’t really do it; I decide not to do bad, but then I do it anyway. “My decisions, such as they are, don’t result in actions. Something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time. “It happens so regularly that it’s predictable. The moment I decide to do good, sin is there to trip me up. “I truly delight in God’s commands, “but it’s pretty obvious that not all of me joins in that delight. Parts of me covertly rebel, and just when I least expect it, they take charge. “I’ve tried everything and nothing helps. I’m at the end of my rope. Is there no one who can do anything for me? Isn’t that the real question? “The answer, thank God, is that Jesus Christ can and does. He acted to set things right in this life of contradictions….” – Rom 7:19-25a (MSG).
Now, I know that integrity begins with personal integration! All of me must become me, for me to be me! And that’s where the hard work begins! I need a ‘me summit’ to resolve the ‘us differences’! I need a renewing of my mind! I need my spirit & soul to come together! I need the flow out of my life to be only the flow of grace! And I thank God, I can do that in & through Jesus Christ!
So…. Here’s my plan;
-i- I will stop struggling & trust in the righteousness of Jesus Christ!
-ii- I will prayerfully draw from grace, to daily live in alignment with God’s will!
-iii- I will keep flooding my inner man with his word until it is saturated with life!
-iv- I will be intentional in arresting any thought that resists grace in me!
-v- I will do right whether I feel like it or not, and even after I’ve done wrongs!
-vi- I will acknowledge & celebrate every improvement as a testimony of grace!
-vii- I will enjoy this as a lifetime adventure until I see Jesus face to face!
And I pray for you today, that whatever resists grace in you will die immediately! Let the glory of God overflow in your life daily! Go & succeed in every area of life in Jesus Christ name!
Jesus Exceeds Expectations!